You know how it is… you have an idea, then try and find a way to put it into practice. What at first seems obvious suddenly throws up all kinds of complications and what had appeared so simple becomes a real headache. You wish you’d never thought of it, but it is too late to change your mind and go back… but going forwards feels as if you will be wading through treacle for the foreseeable future. You start worrying or fretting and that sets up a vicious circle that clouds vision even further.
We had been feeling a little like that with some of the details planned for the upcoming workshop in April. It all worked beautifully on paper, but between the vision and creating a concrete form for those details lay a gulf the imagination struggled to cross.
So, you step back and take another look. Instead…
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Sue’s beautiful description of what we do…
It was one of those mornings when every conversation, across three continents has seemed to lead to the same place. The scraps of paper upon which I’ve been writing notes are strewn across the desk, and it is just as well I can deal with some of these letters online, given the half formed thoughts scrawled over them, for they would tell a strange story taken out of context.
I was talking with a friend, as you do, comparing notes over coffee and a few thousand miles. He described his own spiritual tradition as ‘walking in Beauty’. That, I thought, was a wonderful way to describe any path. Yet it came to my mind that if I had to describe as simply the path that has drawn me, the path we seek to share with the School, I would have to say that we ‘walk in Love’.
For me there…
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River of the Sun, chapter Twelve – Above and Below
Sarkur the Stonemaster lay beneath Egypt’s stars, looking deep into the sky as though reading the story of his own life.
As a young child, his mother would walk him to the cliff-edge, where the stars were brightest, and point out the patterns in the sky. For each, she would tell him the tales handed down by the people of the land, tales of humour, adventure and what he would later know as wisdom. Then there were secret tales, too – tales of her own with which she would embellish the traditional stories, providing a newer narrative on the popular exploits of the Gods, as though seen from a different and hidden perspective. “Always look for the other side, Sarkur” she had said to him, putting him to bed and stroking his forehead while sleep claimed his young body. “Every tale has two faces… the wise man makes a friend of the second and doubles his world.”
He had never forgotten that moment–nor the warmth and humility of the woman who raised him. Now, as he stared up at the masterwork of Nut’s glory, he wondered, once again, why this remote tower could be of such importance to the young Rameses?
Mareuka and his team were sleeping far below, in the moon-shadow of the stone finger. Within the last few hours, fired up by the foreman’s example, they had done the work of a full day, toiling with a fury that belied their tiredness after the earlier march from the great river.
Now they slept.
The narrow, central spiral stairway that connected the ground with the sky-platform was, by now, a hated place–a nightmare of twisting, up which they had to haul themselves and much of their materials. No-one had elected to join Sarkur when he announced he wanted to sleep high under the stars.
Nestled in his solitary tiredness, he smiled at that… he hadn’t wanted anyone with him, anyway, but, unusually for someone of his authority, felt he should ask…
He looked around him in the silver light. Over a quarter of the sun platform had been finished. Its circular perimeter forming a dividing line between ghostly white and shadowy black as it glistened in the bright moonlight. There were no raised edges as you approached that division. The only non-uniformity in the growing disc was a single darker stone, fitted, perfectly, with the others and just offset from the centre of what would be the full circle. When Sarkur had asked its purpose, Rameses had called it the testing stone, for reasons no-one knew. The King-in-Rising had said little else about it, other than to say he was having it made and they need not worry further about it.
With a trick of the tired eye, you could imagine that the growing surface extended like a flat plain out into the high valley beyond the foothills. Sarkur knew the stone workers were proud of what they were building. He also knew that the King-in-Rising would tolerate nothing less than perfection; and would soon be searching for any reason to be dissatisfied with those favourites of his father who now sought favour from the son. He had no wish to lose his royally-backed livelihood… and Seti concurred.
Sarkur traced one of the star patterns with a dusty finger, trying to remember which God’s adventures were written in the tapered shape. He moved his head to align himself with its vertical length, seeing for the first time that it resembled one of the pylons at the entrance to the temple on the island of Gezirah-al-Nabatath. He thought of the long months, many years ago, when practically half of Seti’s building team had worked to restore the old ruins of the ancient Isis temple there, adding and extending as they went, creating what all agreed was one of the great river’s most beautiful wonders.
Correspondences had always fascinated him. He chuckled as a sharp pain in his back reminded him that he had brought up to the starry platform a particularly pure length of sandstone, which had detached itself from a badly fractured larger rock while they had been furiously preparing the last of the day’s raw blocks. The piece had reminded him of one of the main pylons on the Isis island. He loosened the hemp blanket which would later protect hm from the cold that came with the vision of the stars, twisting so that he could extract the rock stump. He held it up to the night sky and marvelled that, although lacking finish, it was nearly the same shape as the sky pattern he had been tracing…
Seeking to get the alignment exact, as though that held some unknown importance, his arms cramped from the day’s over-exertion, and the rock dropped from his tired fingers, bouncing, painfully, off his chest and spinning across the stone and towards the edge of the platform. Despite his age, Sarkur spun, rapidly around and threw out a hand to arrest its motion, but the blanket snagged his movements and he ended up pushing the block over the edge…
For the briefest of moments, he watched it fall, spinning in the moonlight. Then the darkness took it and he could only look down and pray it would miss his stoneworkers. He thought about crying out a warning, but decided it would be too late… The splintering crash told a safe but sad tale and the secondary sounds indicated that the pieces had been scattered far and wide on the rocks below.
He could hear Mareuka cursing in his sleep, which did something to alleviate the unexpected feeling of sadness that dropped from the dark sky.
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Index to previous chapters:
Chapter One – Gifts From the River
Chapter Two – An Agony of Sunset
Chapter Three – The Dark Waters
Chapter Four – Touching the Sky
Chapter Five – The Fire Within
Chapter Seven – The Crystal Air
Chapter Eight – The Unchosen Darkness
Chapter Nine – The Priestess Calls
Chapter Ten – Darkness at the Door
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Introduction to River of the Sun
In April 2015 a group of people gathered in the Derbyshire hills to enact the Silent Eye’s annual Mystery Play, entitled, The River of the Sun. The five-act mystical drama formed the backbone of that Spring weekend, and told the fictional story of a clash of ego and divinity set in an Isis-worshipping temple located on an island in the Nile, during the the fascinating period of the 19th dynasty, the time of Rameses the Great.
The 18th and 19th dynasties were a time of upheaval for ancient Egypt on many levels. The reign of the ‘Heretic King’ Akhenaten saw Egypt’s religious structure torn apart, as the revolutionary Pharaoh became what Wallis Budge called the ‘world’s first monotheist’; re-fashioning the power of the many Gods with one supreme entity – the visible sun disc, the Aten, for which Akhenaten, alone, was the high priest. Many have pointed to the failure of the ‘herectic’ Pharaoh’s politics, but few have doubted the sincerity of his religious vision. He will, forever, remain an enigma.
Whatever the nobility of his goal, the actions he took were ruthless, and included the shutting down of the annual deity festivals which were the sole point of ritualistic contact between the ordinary people of Egypt and their locally-worshipped gods. In addition, Akhenaten paid little attention to the domestic and military affairs of Egypt, allowing the country’s enemies to encroach on its borders, greatly weakening Egypt’s power at that critical time for the region.
After Akhenaten’s brief reign, culminating in the Pharaoh’s mysterious death, shadowy military forces took control of Egypt, instigating the 19th dynasty in the persons of Rameses I and, soon thereafter, Seti I, whose throne name derives from the god Set – often considered the ‘evil one’ because of his slaying of his brother, Osiris.
Seti I is judged by modern historians as having been one of the greatest-ever pharaohs, yet his importance in the 19th dynasty was eclipsed by the actions of his second son, the brilliant Rameses II, whose long reign of over sixty years included much self-promotion and the alteration of Egypt’s recent history. Both Seti and Rameses II (Rameses the Great) were passionate about the evisceration of the last traces of Akhenaten’s ‘chaos’, as they saw it.
But, although, by the 19th dynasty, the the ‘Son of the Sun’ was long dead and the buildings of his embryonic and doomed city of Tel-al-Armana were reduced to rubble, something of that time remained in the Egyptian consciousness. A new kind of connection between Pharaoh and God had been established, one which elevated mankind, if only in the being of the Pharaoh, to be someone who ‘talked with God’. It was, at the very least, a bold experiment and, though the world would have to wait until the 19th century to re-discover the ‘erased’ pharaoh, the philosophical waves of that period rippled out and dramatically affected the way the incoming 19th dynasty had to repair the worship of the Gods, uniting the people of Egypt under a trinity of Amun-Ra, Khonsu and Mut.
Our fictional story is a tale of politics, friendships, mind and faith. It is set against an historically accurate background, and at a time when Rameses was due to take the throne from the dying Seti .
Returning to Thebes in his swift warship, crewed by his fearsome Talatat mind-warriors, Rameses decides to mount a surprise night-time raid on the island-based Isis temple which has prospered under the sponsoring reign of his father. Rameses suspects that the inner teachings conducted by the revered High Priestess and Priest conceal views that relate to the thoughts of the heretic Pharaoh, Akhenaten. He plans to insert himself and his warriors of the mind into the islands’s Spring rites as the high priest and priestess begin a cycle of initiation for a chosen apprentice priest who has proved himself worthy of special advancement.
The resulting clash draws everyone, including the young Pharaoh-in-Rising, into a spiralling situation where each is forced to confront their own fears as well as living out the roles which life has allocated them. River of the Sun is the story of a spiritual and political encounter from which none emerge unchanged, including the man who will shortly be Pharaoh, the mighty Rameses II, whose secret name for himself is ‘the unchosen’.
Through the eyes and minds of those surrounding the chosen priest and the ‘unchosen’ Pharaoh, the River of the Sun takes us on a tense and compelling journey to the heart of power and its eternal struggle with truth.
The chapters of the book will be serialised in this blog. The finished work is planned to be available in paperback and Kindle in the Spring of 2016.
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River of the Sun, serialised here, and its associated images, is the intellectual property of Stephen Tanham and is ©Copyright material.
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Nine Deadly Sins with Coffee, part 45 – Mortal Combat
Nine Deadly Sins with Coffee, part 45 – Mortal Combat
.Alexandra.
I brought the lion scarf-gloves-hat back with me on the next Monday, but tied it up, neatly, in a wide, red, ribbon. I placed it on the table before John arrived. It and his coffee were waiting for him on arrival.
He smiled as he sat down and took in the tabletop. “Tied it yourself?” he asked with a twinkle in his eye.
“All my own work…”
“Bet you could do it blindfold?”
“Well, in dim light, at least,” I replied, sure that I had, finally, fathomed the inner meaning of the myth of the Nemean Lion.
“Did it struggle?”
“Put up one hell of fight… nearly cost me my life!”
“Lions are like that – all or nothing, really!”
“But strangely linked with our destiny… and our past, too.”
“Symbol of courage in much of mythology,” he said, widening his smile. I could sense the trap.
“But not here…” I just let the words fall onto the table top.
“Wasn’t Heracles courageous?” he asked.
“Very much so, but he wasn’t fighting a lion…”
“He wasn’t?” John sipped his coffee and feigned surprise.
I drank my own and chose my words carefully. “Leo, here–” I smiled. “–very clever that little throw-away as we were leaving, last time…” I sipped some more coffee, making him wait. “Leo here isn’t a Lion… he’s a self…”
“Which self?” His eyes had become as hard as diamonds, sensing the end of the chase.
“The Leonine self – the one that wants to be centre stage, like the star sign… the ego.”
“Oh…” he said, twinkling again and grinning behind the raised coffee cup. “Ohhh, that one.”
“But you didn’t kill it?” he said, nodding to the pile of wool trussed up in bright red.
“There are days when I might fancy eating a villager!” I said, reasonably.
He nodded. “So, you don’t need to kill it, but as far as the world is concerned it’s dead?”
“Exactly. As long as I can look at it, tied up in red, and remember its nature, then I know I have it tamed…”
And then something else came to me, something that completed the sequence of meaning and wrapped it up, neatly, with my captive combo before us. “… and I could just carry on wearing it, of course, but in a way that showed I was only wearing a lion’s skin, not being one…”
“Clever that…” he said, looking at the captive Leo and nodding to Rose as she approached, smiling, with our second round of coffees.
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Nine Deadly Sins with Coffee is usually published on Thursdays.
All images and text ©International copyright, The Silent Eye School of Consciousness, 2016.
OLD NOTEBOOKS: There’s a sense of sky, thoughts like clouds drifting through the vast space in the head… but I really don’t want to call it anything; giving things names gives them an identity and what happens next is, I become the ‘happy’ feeling. Feeling “happy” creates a ‘self’ where there wasn’t one before – “I” want to be happy, and don’t want to be ‘sad’, or unhappy. So maybe everything was okay before that ‘happy’ word arrived.
Something deeply understood by every human being in the world is the thought: ‘I am the only one that’s ‘me’, somehow ignoring the overwhelming fact that 7 billion people feel the same way. These days I’m returning to my old notebooks written when I was first discovering Buddhism, it’s this sudden PHN physical condition that’s throwing things all over the place and I need to remember how it all began. It really…
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Sue being overly modest… she’s really a very good photographer; and nine-tenths is in the ‘seeing’.
River of the Sun, Chapter Eleven – Inundation
“Vessel of Sekhmet, take our chosen priest-to-be and show him the path of initiation that lies ahead.”
Firmly within the power of her magic, Amkhren felt the unspoken command to continue looking at the high priestess. His senses were so heightened that he could feel the approach of the severe Vessel of Sekhmet long before fingers that felt like claws came to rest on his shoulders. Her voice spoke through his skin, as though an animal ghost had entered his backbone and was playing him like an instrument. Wordlessly, with light-fingered touches, the lioness turned him. For a second, he gazed into the feral eyes, set into green flesh, then drank the wild beauty of the exotic fabrics flowing over her glowing skin. The red-gold orb with its descending cobra that topped the headdress inclined slightly towards him, and the slightest flicker of a smile played across lips whose inner skills began with portraying savagery as well as gentler arts.
She bent him to his knees, facing the six-pointed figure that framed the centre of the temple with its mysterious rays.
“Kneel before the sacred figure, priest-to-be. Face the centre of your life!”
Before him, set in blue lapis stones within the glittering mosaic of the floor, was a beautiful triangular shape that made up the very heart of the temple, yet connected with the other six points of the innermost circle, making an inner ring of nine, whose extensions, outward from the altar in the centre, formed the radiating symmetry of the whole chamber and its two, larger rings.
Although the figures of Mut and, behind her, the spread of the wings of ancient Isis, dominated the East, here in the centre the geometry defined a different type of space. Set in gold holders, which shone like the sun in the darkness, were three large candles, their flames burning peacefully as the rite unfolded. The flames defined the three points of the inner sanctum. The single point facing him was the inner East, and beyond that lay only a large silver bowl, raised on a plinth of white crystal, which housed a small sea of pure water, with a surface so calm that it was difficult to see that the silver vessel contained any liquid at all…But it did, for those who knew where to look…
The Vessel of Sekhmet was speaking again, “Observe the approach of the season of Akhet – inundation. The inner life of the great river spills over into the lives of men and women, providing for everyone’s needs. This has been your life for the past seven years, working for the temple, which, in turn, fed you and clothed you. Tonight the waters of your inner life will burst through the banks of your previous experience and into the quiet pastures of your outer life… tonight, if you are ready, we will ride this flood…”
Amkhren felt himself drifting into a trance as the Vessel of Sekhmet’s words filled his mind. Floating, he could see beyond the walls of the temple to the great river he had always loved, watching the spring waters as they overcame the meagre banks and spilled onto the flat plains that fed Egypt. As he followed his vision, the flood waters receded, leaving the land black with the gift the waters had carried from distant and fertile places – the dark soil that gave Egypt its reverential name – Kemet, the Black Land.
Sekhmet’s voice rose in intensity. “Expect nothing to be same again!” She let the words fall away, then said, “Rise! One who would be priest. Journey with me around the circle of the year.”
Amkhren felt his soul pull back from the image of the great river, through the great pylons of the temple entrance, on through the huge doors and over the glistening water of the central altar. Something was happening in the temple… something unlike anything he had ever known. The sense of power infused everything around him. His skin crackled with the flow of that energy around the inner circle where the vessels stood, watching him intently, focussed entirely on him. Would his simple soul be able to hold this, he wondered?
Rising from his knees, to legs suddenly leaden, Amkhren stayed perfectly still. As though sensing this, Sekhmet placed a firm hand on his upper arm, guiding him, clockwise, around the inner circle to face the Vessel of Hathor at the next radial point.
“Honour to you, priest to be.” said the woman in the red robe, head resplendent with the same solar disc as Sekhmet, but held in the grip of a pair of horns. “Let the nurturing and healing energies of the Goddess Hathor wash through the pains of your life, bringing you fresh to this moment, as great Ra rises anew each day.
Amkhren bowed to the vision of compassion before him, then in youthful boldness, looked up and tried to read the eyes that understood the heart of kindness – but his arm was taken with great force by Sekhmet, who pulled him around the inner circle to face Anzety, the High Priest. Anzety–he of the calm counsel, always there to walk and talk with, now radiant and waiting…
“Honour to you, priest to be,” said the Vessel of Khonsu. The old god of the moon, elevated to renewed status by Seti in a glorious act of reconciliation to wipe from history those doomed attempts to take the gods from the people. Anzety had, over many years, explained the complex history of this god-form… now, Amkhren knew why…
“Honour to you, priest to be,” said the tall man with the green skin, his head a dome of pure silver. The god-form shook the crook and flail that he carried. The sound made Amkhren shake with its power. “Behold the seed of the future,” said Khonu. “Here you will learn that, in the presence of the Gods, doing begins somewhere other than the muscles of the body…”
Amkhren looked up to read the eyes of the friend he had come to trust above all others, but the strong arms of Sekhmet spun him round to face the centre of the temple, again.
“Kneel before the sacred third point!”
Amkhren fell to his knees and, once again, faced the clear lake of tranquillity at the temple’s centre. But, this time, the sense of potency within his young soul threatened to overwhelm him…
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Index to previous chapters:
Chapter One – Gifts From the River
Chapter Two – An Agony of Sunset
Chapter Three – The Dark Waters
Chapter Four – Touching the Sky
Chapter Five – The Fire Within
Chapter Seven – The Crystal Air
Chapter Eight – The Unchosen Darkness
Chapter Nine – The Priestess Calls
Chapter Ten – Darkness at the Door
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Introduction to River of the Sun
In April 2015 a group of people gathered in the Derbyshire hills to enact the Silent Eye’s annual Mystery Play, entitled, The River of the Sun. The five-act mystical drama formed the backbone of that Spring weekend, and told the fictional story of a clash of ego and divinity set in an Isis-worshipping temple located on an island in the Nile, during the the fascinating period of the 19th dynasty, the time of Rameses the Great.
The 18th and 19th dynasties were a time of upheaval for ancient Egypt on many levels. The reign of the ‘Heretic King’ Akhenaten saw Egypt’s religious structure torn apart, as the revolutionary Pharaoh became what Wallis Budge called the ‘world’s first monotheist’; re-fashioning the power of the many Gods with one supreme entity – the visible sun disc, the Aten, for which Akhenaten, alone, was the high priest. Many have pointed to the failure of the ‘herectic’ Pharaoh’s politics, but few have doubted the sincerity of his religious vision. He will, forever, remain an enigma.
Whatever the nobility of his goal, the actions he took were ruthless, and included the shutting down of the annual deity festivals which were the sole point of ritualistic contact between the ordinary people of Egypt and their locally-worshipped gods. In addition, Akhenaten paid little attention to the domestic and military affairs of Egypt, allowing the country’s enemies to encroach on its borders, greatly weakening Egypt’s power at that critical time for the region.
After Akhenaten’s brief reign, culminating in the Pharaoh’s mysterious death, shadowy military forces took control of Egypt, instigating the 19th dynasty in the persons of Rameses I and, soon thereafter, Seti I, whose throne name derives from the god Set – often considered the ‘evil one’ because of his slaying of his brother, Osiris.
Seti I is judged by modern historians as having been one of the greatest-ever pharaohs, yet his importance in the 19th dynasty was eclipsed by the actions of his second son, the brilliant Rameses II, whose long reign of over sixty years included much self-promotion and the alteration of Egypt’s recent history. Both Seti and Rameses II (Rameses the Great) were passionate about the evisceration of the last traces of Akhenaten’s ‘chaos’, as they saw it.
But, although, by the 19th dynasty, the the ‘Son of the Sun’ was long dead and the buildings of his embryonic and doomed city of Tel-al-Armana were reduced to rubble, something of that time remained in the Egyptian consciousness. A new kind of connection between Pharaoh and God had been established, one which elevated mankind, if only in the being of the Pharaoh, to be someone who ‘talked with God’. It was, at the very least, a bold experiment and, though the world would have to wait until the 19th century to re-discover the ‘erased’ pharaoh, the philosophical waves of that period rippled out and dramatically affected the way the incoming 19th dynasty had to repair the worship of the Gods, uniting the people of Egypt under a trinity of Amun-Ra, Khonsu and Mut.
Our fictional story is a tale of politics, friendships, mind and faith. It is set against an historically accurate background, and at a time when Rameses was due to take the throne from the dying Seti .
Returning to Thebes in his swift warship, crewed by his fearsome Talatat mind-warriors, Rameses decides to mount a surprise night-time raid on the island-based Isis temple which has prospered under the sponsoring reign of his father. Rameses suspects that the inner teachings conducted by the revered High Priestess and Priest conceal views that relate to the thoughts of the heretic Pharaoh, Akhenaten. He plans to insert himself and his warriors of the mind into the islands’s Spring rites as the high priest and priestess begin a cycle of initiation for a chosen apprentice priest who has proved himself worthy of special advancement.
The resulting clash draws everyone, including the young Pharaoh-in-Rising, into a spiralling situation where each is forced to confront their own fears as well as living out the roles which life has allocated them. River of the Sun is the story of a spiritual and political encounter from which none emerge unchanged, including the man who will shortly be Pharaoh, the mighty Rameses II, whose secret name for himself is ‘the unchosen’.
Through the eyes and minds of those surrounding the chosen priest and the ‘unchosen’ Pharaoh, the River of the Sun takes us on a tense and compelling journey to the heart of power and its eternal struggle with truth.
The chapters of the book will be serialised in this blog. The finished work is planned to be available in paperback and Kindle in the Spring of 2016.
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River of the Sun, serialised here, and its associated images, is the intellectual property of Stephen Tanham and is ©Copyright material.
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Ben’s Bit, part 10 – Six Faces of Fear
There is fury in Bakewell Gaol. Outside my cell, doors are being flung open, tables are being thumped and voices are raised in what serves as the interview room. Despite pressing my ear to the shuttered grill, through which Yellow Eyes often studies my incarcerated movements, I can never quite make out the details of the heated conversations.
They wouldn’t be that stupid…
How long has it been now? Several weeks, at least, since I lost my liberty and was thrown into this once proud but now rotting stone hole. The days have become grey. The word reminds me of one of my main adversaries, the good Doctor, who shares the name ‘Grey’; the same colour as my faceless remand uniform. Dr Grey seems to be at the centre of this storm. I catch his footsteps and snippets of his voice as he takes his ‘guests’ down the corridor and into the rooms beyond. It’s a poor place, Bakewell Gaol, but, for once, its paucity of facilities is hurting them more than me.
From the snippets of his voice I can tell he’s beginning to get very flustered. it would be funny were it not precipitous – if he slides down the mountain of complexity they have created out of a simple incident, who will replace him? Better the devil, perhaps…
I make some assumptions and end up marvelling at the problems that a helpless man can create. How did I do this to them? I ask myself, pretending to have a power I do not believe I possess…
Them… What do I know of them? I pretend I’m playing a murder mystery game… actually shouting out to prove I exist, to try, however hopelessly, to impact the frantic process outside. What have I got to lose?
I begin to wind up my pretend audience in the envisaged manner of a Victorian music hall ‘chairman’, “Well, ladies and gentlemen,” I begin. “on Character Card One we have the renowned Dr Grey,” I sneer. “in the thick of it – technically in charge of the investigation into the sanity of the villain, an ex-businessman who swapped respect for the theft, no, relocation of an ancient stone; oh, and yes,” I lower my voice conspiratorially and shake my head. “who shot out the lights near Bakewell’s All Saint’s church, to cover his tracks – like that worked!” …sniggers of approval from the appreciative audience as the narrator spins to include them all in this travesty of an foredoomed incident.
I pace around the edge of my vast room – it takes all of ten strides – shouting, “Card Two: We have Dr Grey’s assistant, the lovely, silky black haired and very sexy – yes even in here…” I make my voice curl up in tone “…seeeexy Miss Golding, known locally as Miss Goodnight of the heels!” I make sure the words are aimed with maximum energy at the narrow grill, my communication plate with the outside world, meagre though it is.
I pause for breath, drawing myself taller with the intake. “Character Card three!” I’m really getting into this. For a second I hear a noise outside my cell and wonder if someone has come out from one of the frantic ‘meetings’ to listen to the lunatic in Cell One… but the noise does not continue, so I resume my creative rant. “Character Card three is the famous Yellow Eyes – our local guard here in Bakewell Gaol – a dour fellow, big as a tree and strong as an ox.” I turn my voice into a hiss as I spin to share the deadly picture. “Not a man to be crossed!” I nod as the spinning audience hisses with me… it’s like a punch and judy show, what fun…
“Character Card Four is the mysterious prison Guv’nor… whose face has yet to be seen!” I nod, again, as I rotate to face them all, raising my eyebrows. “Does he really exist? Or is he just a convenient bogeyman for Yellow Eyes to refer to during our lunatic’s nighty night stories?” They nod back, wise to the ways of the devious – they’ve seen such plots before…
“Character Card Five is the mysterious figure in the dreams, in the visions and possibly…” I wait to play my ace… “the source of the confusion outside!” I smile, showing them the vast reserves I still have left in this battle. “Oh yes… a rich and powerful figure… or is he just a figment of a sad mind, too long locked in this dreadful place?” They have sympathy, but one or two of them prod each other as if to say, look, he knows something he’s not supposed to… It’s an interesting development, and even I’m surprised that this has surfaced at this point. Perhaps the techniques of mystical disconnectedness have thrown up another fact, like the time my inner enquiry threw up the knowledge that Yellow Eyes was actually a church warden of All Saints, and therefore personally hurt by my heinous crime…
“Card Six, ladies and gentlemen, the last…” I make them wait. “Is…” But the sound of a large key opening the old and well oiled lock of my cell door overcomes the high point of the performance.
Yellow Eyes is standing there. I suspect he had been there for some time – sent by ‘the meeting’ to investigate the shouting. He pushes the door so that it opens, slowly, swinging on its full arc and crunching into the crumbling plaster of the ancient cell. This is new… he’s never deliberately damaged part of his kingdom before. Standing perfectly still, he glares at me. Every cell in my body wants to back up against the far wall – somewhere I’m supposed to retreat to on his entrance, but I have noticed that there is something else new about him… His face is streaked with sweat. He’s a man of unpleasant hygiene at the best of times, but I’ve never seen him look like this before.
With nothing to lose, I actually feel myself walking towards him… As I get closer I can hear his breathing – it’s ragged with rage. His eyes widen as I approach, fearlessly – or insanely – studying the sweating mountain of a man.
His hands curl into fists as I close the distance. I can see he’s fighting for breath… I envisage the three steps that will bring me face to face with his enraged hugeness, and begin to walk to my death…
“Sorry,” says the little man, who darts through the gap between Yellow Eyes’ legs and the old iron door frame. “The agency sent me on the last minute,” he continues. “… in response to a call from the Governor.” He rolls his eyes and comes to stand between me and the beast in the doorway. “I’m to do what I can to clean the place up for you… make you feel a bit more… looked after…” he looks up at me, apologetically. For a second I wonder if I’m hallucinating, wonder if Yellow Eyes has dealt me a thunder-blow to the head and I’m really lying in the corner of the cell with a broken brain and blood dripping from what’s left of my nose.
But I’m not… and, in a further surreal twist, when I look beyond the diminutive newcomer, the doorway is empty… Yellow Eyes is gone.
“Sorry,” says the little man in front of me. “Didn’t mean to barge in like that, but you looked like you could use a distraction!” He chuckles…
I can’t take this any more, and begin to laugh hysterically… My visitor pats me on the back, heartily. “Excellent approach,” he says “Best way – laugh it all off, after all who’s to say what’s real and what’s not?”
I fall back on the bed, still rocking with the sheer madness of all this…. but there’s an intense feeling of what I can only call ‘gladness’ about his presence.
“Marco,” he says, holding out his hand. “Just Marco…” His thin lips curl into a smile and, for a second, he reminds me of a character in an old black and white film where a humble detective of his stature proved to be unkillable; and the baddies all went to jail while he walked away at the end, laughing and whistling… and very much alive.
I take his hand and manage a thank you. I set out to say hello but thank you comes out.
“You rest up now and I’ll clean this place up,” he says, putting down his large bag of cleaning implements and materials. “Be amazed what a spring clean can do to a troubled soul.” He coughs apologetically before continuing. “And I know how dusty these old places can get…”
What is this? I wonder. What card has fate played me here? The very air in the cell has changed at the presence of this small and swarthy man. I study him further, though it is hard to do–there seems to be an indefiniteness about his features, as though they are continually shifting from within. His skin is mediterranean – old but vital. His brown eyes are furtive but full of humour. The small frame is slight but wiry, and, for some reason, completely at odds with the white “Clean Genie – Best Prices!” uniform he’s wearing.
I lie back, exhausted beyond comprehension. The last thing I remember before oblivion takes me is the soothing sound of his brush as it takes a layer of dust from my floor and into his pan.
When I wake up, several hours later, he has gone – long gone, I suspect. The only sign of his former presence is a can of rose-scented spray. ‘Compliments of the Genie’ is written on a small business card propped up against it… But, beneath the can, and almost invisible in the shadows, is a copy of something called Peak Past…
<See index below for other parts of this story>
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Nine Deadly Sins with Coffee, part 44 – The Enemy Within
Nine Deadly Sins with Coffee, part 44 – The Enemy Within
.Alexandra.
I had found the Lion in the window of a charity shop. It was a combination scarf, handbag and, now, hat…
“I’m assuming that’s a lion you’re wearing?” asked John, when I sat down with my coffee and two butter knives.
“Sorry about that,” I replied. “Best I could do – found it in a charity shop and it needed a bit of TLC and a good wash!”
“Washed the stuffing out of it?”
“More of less. I fear its debut will be its swan song, but, heh, it was worth the pound it cost me, just for the look on your face…”
We both sipped our coffees, each looking at the other warily. I liked that–liked that he could no longer predict all my moves. Just to keep him on his toes, I took the knives and crossed them over each other in the middle of the table, so they were shaped like a St Andrew’s cross.
“We’re having hot cross buns?” he asked, knowing we weren’t, but little else.
“Do we usually have hot cross buns?” I asked, unreasonably.
“A very confined fencing match, then?”
I chuckled. “To the death then…” It was the only sense I could make of the myth – that it was a fight to the death, only one of them could win… Heracles or the lion.
He looked exasperated. Oh good, I thought.
Not wanting to give more away without him having to work for it, I kicked him a snippet. “A fight to the death, then…”
John looked up from reading the back of his coffee cup. “Ah, a fight… so we are doing the Nemean Lion?”
I didn’t mean to gush at that point but the sheer frustration of trying to fathom the myth had got to me. “Yes, we are… and it’s a sod!”
“I’ll grant you it’s not obvious…” he said, looking like he really did want to help. I’ll give him that – his youthful propensity to sulk, remembered from my teens, had diminished with age.
“It’s less than obvious–its despicable,” I said. “A fearsome lion terrorises a region of the county, Heracles is told he must kill it. He discards all the weapons he’s been given, except the club he made himself. Finally, he corners it in a cave – but the cave has two entrances so the lion keeps escaping. To reduce his chances to zero he lays down even his club and enters the cave with no weapons, strangling it with his bare hands… job done.”
“Are we getting a little frustrated with Heracles on this one?”
I was tense, he was right. I could find no meaningful start point for decoding this myth.
“Want a clue?” he persisted.
I nodded, then breathed out, noisily, and sipped my coffee. Rose appeared and John signalled we might need two more.
“Saviours were often described as being born in caves…” John said.
“Saviours…” I mused. “But isn’t Heracles the Saviour?”
“Well, yes, of course,” he said. “But is Heracles singular.”
“Of course,” I said, engaging mouth before brain. “There’s just one of…” and then I saw it – saw that Heracles was, of course all such figures; all aspirants on this path. I looked up to see John smiling, warmly, at me. “Born in a cave…” I whispered. “Like you know who..”
“Like many such you know whos.” he said.
“But he wasn’t born in that cave, he just went in after the Lion – after lighting a fire at the other end to block it!”
It was obvious I had lost my ‘edge’ with this one. Nothing was connecting as it had before the previous visit.
“And in how many ways are people said to be ‘born’?” He smiled and took the new coffees from Rose.
I sat up, catching the edge of the meaning he was trying to convey. “So, something happened in the cave; something that Heracles had to do in the ‘darkness of an interior?”
John winced at hot coffee taken too soon. “Now you’re getting somewhere!”
“But why fight a lion – apart from the obvious?”
“I think you need to go and look up lions,” he said. “Or I’ll end up telling you the whole thing and spoiling it…”
I nodded at this wisdom. For once, we drank and laughed and exchanged small talk.
“Bring Leo back with you next week,” he said as he kissed me on the paw…
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Nine Deadly Sins with Coffee is usually published on Thursdays.
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I’m not really a ‘pub’ person. I love a glass of wine or three, and an occasional pint of beer; but I’m not a regular at our local pub. One of the reasons for that is, probably, that it’s a half hour walk away in this sodden part of Cumbria, and the journey usually involves a walk in total darkness to get home. Not that such a stroll is a problem in itself, just that when you’re faced with that versus a glass of wine at home in the warm comfort and your favourite and deeply understanding settee, well, you get my drift…
But, increasingly, I miss the sort of ‘chaps’ camaraderie that used to grace the occasional visit to various pubs in my former, gainfully employed years. Being dropped off for a ‘Sesh’ (our word for a drinking session) was one of the occasional highlights of the year – particularly in the run-up to Christmas.
I’m not complaining – I love my new life as a writer and one of the Silent Eye’s directors, and we certainly make up for any interim lack of camaraderie when the group of us who run the School get together for one of our workshops. Everyone’s invited of course, the more the merrier…
But back to the chaps thing. This Christmas, whose memory is now fading so fast into fuzzy history, we had a lovely meal with three friends. One was my wife’s sister, Joanne, the other two, Tony and Mary, were family friends of the two sisters and have recently got back in touch. Tony is now retired but spent his working life in complex parts of the world delivering amazingly complex civil engineering projects with scant resources. He’s my sort of person, and has the sort of gritty humour born of the constant facing of such adversity.
Ensconced in our ‘local’ pub, The Strickland Arms, for a pre-Christmas meal, he and I, surrounded by the gentle conversation of the ladies, began to actually talk, rather than just passing the time in pleasantries. Within an astonishing hour, we were deep in the nature of the human psyche, both amazed that the other shared the same pathways of conclusions and wonderings. Stopping for the essential lubrication of a second pint of bitter, we then ventured into our favourite amusing ‘pet-hates’.
And that’s when the fickle finger surfaced.
I had better explain… I am a self-confessed techno-lover. I have always gained deep pleasure and satisfaction from the creative power endowed by a personal computer. I count myself blessed to be incarnated into a generation which has seen the capability of such devices evolve from the humble word processor, to the sort of creative power offered by modern image and presentation software. As an amateur photographer, what I can do with a simple image taken on my iPhone astonishes me.
My techno-armoury includes an Apple Mac, an Apple iPhone and a Retina-screened iPad. I am lucky to have such devices at my disposal. Conscious of this, I do my best to share the fruits of their power with anyone interesting in my musings… It’s a kind of duty, and a very pleasant one.
But I have an issue… and increasingly, it’s driving me crazy; as part two of our impromptu sesh at the pub went on to consider.
My MacBook has one of the best finger-tracking devices I’ve ever used. I’ve stopped using a mouse at all – and I never thought I’d say that- because the exactness of using the MacBook’s trackpad is so delightful… and that extends to doing drawings and editing photos as well. So I know what Apple can do, given the will.
But here’s the rub. I bought my iPad so that I would always have a smart and creative device with me when I travel. The iPad is a leading soldier in the army of ‘persuaders’ that are trying to get us away from conventional laptops… and it just doesn’t hack it. Don’t get me wrong, I love browsing on my iPad, it’s brilliant at it, with its high-res screen and ability to sit on your knee with that cup of coffee… but, and it’s a big but, the finger is a rubbish replacement for a mouse… or a trackpad for that matter.
I’ve lost track of the hours I’ve wasted trying to work complex programs that have promised an ‘identical experience’ of the same program that I know and love on my desktop or laptop devices. Identical experience – rubbish! And the worst things is that it’s not the program’s fault, its the useless accuracy of the finger-pointing device in the core operating system.
Get me a small plane and a good pilot and I’ll write it in the sky over Cupertino, “Listen Apple, the rush to dumb down the ‘device’ is leaving behind all those fans who love you so much…” And it’s not just Apple, of course, all the major device manufacturers are moving to ‘finger’ devices in the mistaken belief that you can do the same job on them. Bollocks… Take away our ‘mouses’ at your peril…
The core problem is that the finger is a hundred times wider than the tip of a mouse or trackpad-driven cursor. And there’s no getting round that as far as I know. When I want large scale pointing, I’m happy with my finger tip; when I want accuracy, I want something much more precise…
So come on, Apple; and the rest of you – start shipping optional ‘trackpads’ with our dumbed-down technology and take us out of this finger-pointed misery.
This more of less was the course of the conversation Tony and I had, over the course of the next beer or two, while the ladies, I have to say, seemed glad to be out of it… funny that.
So, my new friend and I have decided that, once a month, I will get on a southbound train at Oxenholme and get off, twelve minutes later, at Lancaster, not far from where he lives. He is tasked with finding an old-fashioned pub, one with no machines ringing bells at what’s left of people’s minds, and graced with a log fire… There, in our new-found snug, we will put to rights the ills of the world, safe in the pleasant glow of a good beer or two. My understanding wife has offered to collect me off the train as long as I can still speak.
It may form the stuff of an occasional ‘curmudgeon’s diary’. I think I’ll call it ‘Sodden Tales..”
I’ll bring the finger and we can decide where to point it on arrival.

Orphia’s Liar
(inspired by a recent theatre performance)
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He hangs upon the frame of wood
With leather bonds at back and thighs
While she below who kneels and smiles
Need only upward pout her sighs
To see the flame behind the need
And thus give wings to Orphia’s skies
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Enmeshed in nature’s plot he aches
And dreams of blood which deeper flows
While past the screen of time she plucks
And through the strings of upturned mind bestows
A deadly trail for he whose flesh is fire
Now caught between the lyre and what it knows
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You dare to scourge the Christ? he says
I dare to scourge all Christs! she laughs
I am the wood from which you hang
I am the thorned flax which flies
Towards your skin which holds within
The breath from bonded lips where truth resides
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Too slow! she laughs, as silence writhes
Letitia, throw our man into the lair
Let spinning maidens hold him fast
While each one draws a brew so fair
And so reveal, with fleshly squeals
The notes that emptied vessels share
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No taste for such excess my love?
His wife, Letitia, says, with glee
Then let us poke and so provoke
To raise your game and straighten knee
And so return the man-child to his stroke
This long awaited, rising fire of oak
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And so the show with its tableaux
Comes to rest in time and place
From clapping sounds the stage resounds
For those who now wear smiles of grace
But curling out of meleed flesh is he now free
whose snarl is swapped for different face
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Alone within the outer, perfect, dark
She watches, still, as cat draws near
A glowing tyger lit with perfect stripes
Revealed in flowing stages–none of fear
Then hand and claw fold gently into one
And perfect silence fills each listening ear
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©Copyright Stephen Tanham 2016











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