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Ben’s Bit, part 15 – Bolero At first, I think it’s a memory of a dream – of that night when knowledge of the unknown Miss Goodnight, soon to be Golding, came into my life. The heels on the concrete corridor this time are tapping a slower rhythm. It passes my cell door, rendering me fully awake, then diminishes as she walks further along the corridor. … Read More Ben’s Bit, part 15 – Bolero

March 18, 2016 + Ancient Landscapes, Bakewell Jail, Ben's Bit, Doomsday series of books, esoteric psychology, Silent Eye School

Ben’s Bit, part 14 – A Pruning of Normality

by Steve Tanham

“Tell us about normal, Ben?” asks Dr Grey, looking like a man rejuvenated, as he glances sideways for approval from the silent Governor. “In your own words, of course…” I try to stay calm. The three people in the room are transmitting a mixture of emotions at me. I’m very sensitive to that. It’s probably what led me to study spirituality. You can’t always … Read More Ben’s Bit, part 14 – A Pruning of Normality

March 4, 2016 + Ancient Landscapes, Bakewell Jail, Ben's Bit, Doomsday series of books, esoteric psychology, Silent Eye School

Ben’s Bit, part 13 – The White Hot Blade of Separation

by Steve Tanham

“And then there are the moments when the white hot blade of separation comes into your life, and everything changes. In the presence of such instantaneous power, you realise that the human view of transformation is impoverished by a lack of true experience at the edge, while your former life is separated from the now with a cut of such precision that it is … Read More Ben’s Bit, part 13 – The White Hot Blade of Separation

February 19, 2016 + Ancient Landscapes, Bakewell Jail, Ben's Bit, Doomsday series of books, esoteric psychology, Silent Eye School

Ben’s Bit, part twelve – Cold Governance

by Steve Tanham

Ben’s Bit, part twelve – Cold Governance There’s something about the door that terrifies me. I suspect that it’s still unlocked. But I won’t try it to see. To try it would risk some fragile things. If it were locked and I had maintained my belief that Roger Sylvester, my new gaoler, being a good man, had left it open as a rebellious gesture against a system … Read More Ben’s Bit, part twelve – Cold Governance

February 5, 2016 + Ancient Landscapes, Bakewell Jail, Ben's Bit, Doomsday series of books, esoteric psychology, Silent Eye School

Ben’s Bit, part eleven – Aspects of Power

by Steve Tanham

Ben’s Bit, part eleven – Aspects of Power “Ben, I’ve got some good news and some bad news…” The Governor of Bakewell Gaol is enjoying himself, but there’s a deadly edge to the calm exterior manner. We are sitting in the ‘interview room’. We being the redoubtable Dr Grey, looking smug; his sexy assistant, Miss Goodnight of the Heels – nee Golding, who is not … Read More Ben’s Bit, part eleven – Aspects of Power

January 15, 2016 + Ancient Landscapes, Bakewell Jail, Ben's Bit, Doomsday series of books, esoteric psychology, Silent Eye School

Ben’s Bit, part 10 – Six Faces of Fear

by Steve Tanham

There is fury in Bakewell Gaol. Outside my cell, doors are being flung open, tables are being thumped and voices are raised in what serves as the interview room. Despite pressing my ear to the shuttered grill, through which Yellow Eyes often studies my incarcerated movements, I can never quite make out the details of the heated conversations. They wouldn’t be that stupid… How … Read More Ben’s Bit, part 10 – Six Faces of Fear

September 12, 2015 + Ancient Landscapes, Bakewell Jail, Ben's Bit, Doomsday series of books, esoteric psychology, Silent Eye School

Ben’s Bit, part 8 – The Shimmering Hand

by Steve Tanham

“I’m not your enemy, Ben …” Miss Goodnight looks calmly back along the line of my gaze which is focussed on the beautiful skin of her throat, where my second attempt to generate the flush of passion has just failed miserably. “I would really like to get to know you better,” she says, unconsciously running the capped end of her fountain pen over her bottom … Read More Ben’s Bit, part 8 – The Shimmering Hand

September 6, 2015 + Doomsday series of books, esoteric psychology, prisoner, Silent Eye School, soul in body

Ben’s Bit, part seven – Heels in the Night

by Steve Tanham

Ben’s Bit, part 7 – Heels in the Night The sound began one night; an insistent tapping entering my dreams, making me think of leaking pipes and other failing elements of the old infrastructure of Bakewell’s ‘improving’ jail. When it continued, my thin sleep on the thinner mattress came to an end, and I lay with ears straining in the total blackness as the insistent … Read More Ben’s Bit, part seven – Heels in the Night