The She Sentinel

 

The She Sentinel

 

A small festival, where pilgrims, 

unknown to themselves, climb me

Clutching children, 

adorned with picnics, 

They play

And round my ragged peak, 

they stand and point their heads

For the length of a heartbeat

And wonder . . .

 

But it was not always thus

 

Over many years he changed my face

Wrought outer magic on my hillside

Created wonder and even let the pilgrims in

Though they were ragged then, and poor

 

But he never saw my heart

Though his wife would stand and stare

And wonder . . .

 

But it was not always thus

 

In older times

Erased now from their memories

When brother fought with brother

And the blood of the kin spilled like water

On my soil

They lit a beacon here

To warn that killing approached

In the time when the head 

Began to rule the heart

 

And even then

Some, sweating in bloodied armour

Would stop and stare

Or, decorated, stop their steeds

And pause a while

And wonder

 

But it was not always thus

 

But of the ancients, I will not speak

For you do not have the ears that hear

 

And now you . . .

 

And now you amuse me

For six days you have risen at dawn

To walk your personal trail to me

To stand and stare

 

But you dare to do this with your heart

 

I wonder, will I let you in?

 

Perhaps, tomorrow, when

My sister the wind

Says she will carry the water

That floods the land

 

Then we will see if you have

The ancient intent

And then, perhaps . . . 

 

It will not always have been thus.

 

©Copyright Stephen Tanham 2015

Dark Night of the Stone

Gawain for Poem Shiny Green ace

Dark Night of the Stone

Freezing fingers clutch the silver cup

The thin but faithful horse stands grace

Equine feelings urge Gawain, “Go on”

The mountain stream adds ice; its own

Completing miseries’ embrace

——-

How did we come to this, Gawain?

His frozen thoughts; the pain, protest

How did we seek a place unknown

To pay the debt we shouldn’t own

From Christmas last, a bitter jest!

——-

He fingers coins, full purse of spite

“Perhaps I’ll buy a room!”

But round him snow and frozen streams

Speak far of warming tavern’s dreams

And icy wind that offers only doom

——-

A mind, half starved, breaks off a branch

“May I divine a place to Yule!”

The joke is lost on blackening fells

Which long for village evening bells

Far from that place where death’s the only rule

——-

His strength no more can fight the cold

He draws his sword and drives its mark

Into the earth, then at this cross begins to pray

In deepest heart beloved Arthur finds a way

And fire which needs no place defies the dark

©Copyright Stephen Tanham, 2015

Before Osiris

Before Osiris

We do not speak of death, he said

Not here, where shapes of dread can hold no sway,

And disappear at end of days; and mouths spit out their final hate,

Then mute, come forth unto that silent gate

——-

Come gentle soul, and rise, he said

And let Anubis wash your eyes; clean fear away,

from inner skies, until, forever leaving blame

We raise you clear of this, your earthly name

——-

We only speak of life, he said

When opened eyes’ eternal gaze, whose gift is not,

Mere counted days, but that by which all time be known

And finding where you do not live, come home.

——-

We only speak of truth, he said

Not we, but you the judge must be, and balanced on these scales,

Your heart must see its worth, and opened, have its say

So that the man reborn to be, goes forth into a different day

©Copyright Stephen Tanham, 2015

The Other Way

The End of Time

The End of Time

Whenever I think of Sandy

I think, first, of his lined red face, his brightening smile

And scrub and dust and boots, and thin cheroots

And an old guitar that sings a while

———–

No cares survived to scar his life

Few needs, and too few friends preserved, pristine, his time

But distant heartbeats feed, between the bottle and the weed

Within the space of memory that is mine

———–

He is not real, of course, this Sandy

A screen on which the movie-mind shows light

Projected from a dream, this wilderness from far is seen

As necessary to complete the man who might

———–

His Harley gathers dust and grime

Behind old timber slats, that smell of creosote and sun

But the key that swings, on its old chrome rings,

Will only with my fingers turn and run

———–

Whenever I think of Sandy

The distance is his scrub and dust that blinds; not mine

No gravestone mars the plot, where he laid down his lot

His passing simply marks the end of time

———–

©Copyright Stephen Tanham, 2015

Nine Deadly Sins with Coffee – Part Fourteen

Alexandra was late arriving for our usual Monday morning coffee.  She stormed into the coffee shop and slammed down the heaviest of her bags, making her less-than-hot latte shake in its tall glass tumbler.
“Some people,” she fumed. “should never have be given driving licences . . . that taxi-driver is one of them!”
If one can be said to sit down in anger, then she did.
“Morning,” I said, neutrally, looking up from rummaging in my  bag. “Pleasant weekend?” I enquired, hazardously.
“Oh stop, it,” She said; the worst was, plainly, not over. “Stop being so nice! when I’m being horrible!”
I looked at her, unable to let the humour and the timing of her mental state go to waste. “We still have fifteen minutes” I said. “And what you just said shows you are, at least, conscious of your anger . . .”
“Not doing much about it, though, am I?” she sipped her coffee, finding it nearly cold, which somehow added to her self-recrimination. “Damn it . . .” she muttered.
I smiled at her, again, and took the small thermos flask out of my bag. I watched her become distracted from her foul mood, as I unscrewed the top and let the single occupant slide out, noisily, onto my waiting saucer. That drew her attention and she noticed the changed table in front of us.
“You’re having tea!  You always have coffee!”
“I like tea, too . . .”
“And there’s an ice-cube swimming around your saucer.”
“It’s for you,” I said. “It relates to the first of the points on the enneagram, going clockwise from the Nine.”
“Station One?” she asked, becoming fascinated with what I was doing.
I took a small file, with a square cross-section, from my bag, the sort you would use to carry out a finishing job in woodworking. I began to file down the top of my cylindrical ice cube, carving a neat cross into the top of the ice.  When I had finished, it bore a passing resemblance to a bishop-piece from a set of chess players.
“A chess bishop?!” she asked, examining the solitary figure in the saucer, the giggle supplanting the fading anger.
“Not quite”, I said.” I worked out that it was the only figure I could carve, in the time available – that was close to what I wanted.”
“Not a bishop then . . .”
“No, a Queen . . . “
“Is she finished?” she asked, her eyes filling with mirth at this further Monday madness.
“Nearly,” I said, pouring the near-boiling water from the silver pot into the base of the saucer – creating a sort of moat around my primitive royal figure.  Within seconds, it began to melt . . .
She was struggling to catch the meaning. Her mouth was open, forming words to catch the concepts she was streaming.  “Ice, water, heat . . . help me!”
“The One Station,” I said, “It’s useful to have a figure, an icon, which helps us crystallise the characteristics of this aspect of all our personalities.”
She was nodding – grasping the idea, as I knew she would. “And this one is–”
“–an Ice Queen,” I said. “Pristine and perfect – or would have been if I’d had a freezer and a set of proper tools in the car.”
She looked down at the small ice queen in my saucer, now listing to starboard as the ice melted, unevenly. “And the boiling water?” she asked.
“The anger that causes so much self-destruction. But which, sadly, goes with the package of this aspect of ourselves”
She was quiet then, realising how wonderfully life had conspired to illustrate the principle, as it so often did.
She looked at her watch. “Got to go . . .”
“Yes, and the anger has gone, too”
“Yes,” she added, looking down at the saucer with a smile. “And so has the Ice Queen . . .”
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Nine Deadly Sins with Coffee is usually published on Thursdays.
All images and text ©International copyright, The Silent Eye School of Consciousness, 2015.
                                                
Contact details and an outline description of the Silent Eye School are on the other pages of this blog and via the website at www.thesilenteye.co.uk

The Burning of the Moors

Nine Deadly Sins with Coffee – Part Thirteen

Alexandra arrived to find her coffee waiting on the table; together with an old silver coin.

“It’s a half-crown,” I said, in response to her puzzled look. “You may never have seen one, before?”

“I have. My grandfather had some; and what am I supposed to do with it?” she asked, in reply.

“Why, you spin it, of course!” I was being irritating, but it was for a purpose, besides, I am not old enough to be her grandfather.

“One coin, two faces – okay, technically a head and a tail? So,” she paused to take a breath. “What am I choosing between?”

“Much better,” I was ready to drop the curmudgeon. “Between a dance around the clock or a hexawaltz!”

“A what!?”

“I just made it up –  a hexawaltz . . .”

She sat down, looked at me as though she could throw something, then decided to sip her coffee. “See reaction forming, stand back, creating inner space. Let reaction play itself out in imagination . . . smile, instead.”  She beamed at me.

“Dammit, that was far too good,” I admitted, taking some of my own coffee.

“And now the choice–as my reward, professor . . .”

“I’m not your professor, but the choice is between walking the perimeter of the enneagram or dancing the hexaflow – either way we will cover the full circle of nine stations – as I promised, and in a bit more detail this time.”

“Now that I know about the wave and the context of where the Nine came from?”

I nodded. “Now that you know all that.”  I flicked the coin into the air above our table. “Call it!”

“Heads!” she had blurted it out before she realised that there was no outcome associated with the choice she had made. I let the half-crown fall into my palm and slapped it, opposite side down on the upper side of my left hand.

“So which way are we going to do it?” she said. “Since the coin is, clearly, irrelevant!”

“Awww, and I was having such a good time!” I said.

“I know you were – that’s why I spoiled your fun!”

“Ouch!” I said. “Bested by my favourite legal mind, again . . .” I revealed the snake on the trick coin and sat there grinning and insufferable. She chuckled into her coffee.

Alexandra muttered into the froth, “Bastard . . .”

“Not entirely,” I defended my stance. “There is method in the professor’s madness, and probability is an important issue in the greater picture of the enneagram.”

“Snake, then . . .” She sat back, crossing one elegant leg over the other and waited. “I’m waiting . . .”

“Round the clock, then,” I began. “We could start anywhere, but remember that everything in the enneagram, viewed as a clock face of process, progresses from Zero to One to Three to Nine.”

“Zero? You never mentioned zero before!”

She was right. I nodded, smiling. “Zero really occupies the same spot as Nine, and marks the initiation of something for which Nine is its completion – It’s similar to how Ten works in our decimal system, yet contains the One from which it began – we don’t start counting at zero do we? And yet, mathematically, it’s there; but of rather a different nature from One”

“Okay,” she said, leaning forwards. “So a raw Zero state gets processed ‘around the clock’ of the enneagram to end up as the Nine at the end of the cycle.”

“Exactly so–in nine stages, just like a spiral.”

That idea took hold immediately. “Oh, that’s good, so, it’s really three-dimensional, but, because we can only see it from above, we just see it returning to Nine, as though Nine were unchanged and just the point of starting again.”

“Whereas–?” I prompted.

“Whereas, really, in any process, the Nine represents what you would call an alchemical completion of a cycle . . .”

“Breathtaking!”

“Thank you.” She smiled. “I do listen . . .sometimes.” She chuckled, again. “When I’m not wanting to throw coffee at you!”

It was my turn to sit back and drink my coffee. “And you have to go, now, but before you do, I can tell you the exciting news that there are people living around the enneagram!”

There was mirth in her eyes. “Shock, horror–people, no less! Squatters, possibly!”

Her laughter was infectious. I joined in the mirth. “Yes, people; and, sadly, their presence there has nothing at all to do with the working out of process in the general sense that Gurdjieff taught us . . .”

“Wha–”

“It’s complex; but beautiful. And it deserves a full answer or you won’t get the elegant sense of it all – but there are two systems of human development alive and well in this beautiful glyph and they co-exist very well . . .”

Ten minutes later, I helped her onto the train. She leaned down to give me the customary Monday hug and peck on the cheek.

“Such fun,” she said, as the carriage doors whooshed shut.

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Nine Deadly Sins with Coffee is usually published on Thursdays.

All images and text ©International copyright, The Silent Eye School of Consciousness, 2015.

                                                

Contact details and an outline description of the Silent Eye School are on the other pages of this blog and via the website at www.thesilenteye.co.uk

Dear Wen XXX

Stowford’s and office chairs

As the group of us in the Silent Eye have drunk many a pint of Stowfords cider, I couldn’t resist reblogging this from Sue Vincent.

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stowford's cider

I’ve still got two Stowford’s just sat in the fridge,
And I know that you’re thinking that that’s sacrilege
But I seldom drink alcohol when I’m alone
And as Ani’s teetotal, I’m all on my own.

I’ll save them, I thought, for a nice sunny day
When the garden gets done, or I’ve been out to play
Taking Ani out into the fields for a run…
I’ll be hot and bothered, and then I’ll have one.

But of course I forget, as I am quite unused
And the habit of such luxury is reduced –
To have Stowford’s at home, well that’s really quite new,
So you’d think I’d be up for imbibing a few.

As a gift, I must say, that their welcome was sure
And the knowledge I do not have weeks to endure
Before getting a pint of that cool, golden liquor…!
I could not have accepted…

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