
They’ve just run past – sweating a little more this time, and down to two; the other two Carabinieri are lying behind that wall in ecstasy. One of the survivors shouted that this smelled fishy as they flashed past in their lovely blue uniforms… If only they knew!
Not fishy, exactly. Picture essence of midsummer cherries, the smell of new-mown grass, your favourite bubble-gum from childhood. All topped off with the sweetness of a red summer rose at dawn. It’s said to redefine intoxication…
That’s what they get, briefly. But it’s just the trigger: my scent, if you like. What they really taste is the sweetest kiss they’ve ever had from the favourite image of their dreams. And then they’re out, lying in writhing heaven beneath some apple tree by the road… or behind a stone wall, where they’ll moan and mumble till it wears off… An hour of two max; by which time I’ll be back through Assisi and on the road to the coast.
I adore Italy. The worship of these would-be lovers is so passionate, so full of voluptuous images that are easy to tease from the consciousness. Pity I have to go, but the probabilities are gathering momentum against me and I can’t risk it. I’m going to miss this little street-baby of a car, too. Insanely quick over the cobbles of narrow, mediaeval streets in these mouth-watering hill towns, like Spello.
Paris, perhaps? I’ll need a faster car. There’s a drop-dead twenty-something finishing off the restoration of a 1960s Ferrari behind the garage in the main square. I don’t need him to drive, the morphed redhead/blonde/brunette or sci-if shaved skull can do that fine in corporeal mode, thank you very much. But the car might need a mechanic. I’m not sure I could cope with his sighing all the way to the border… where I’d put him gently on a pile of hay and kiss him for real… just once, to thank him. I’m nice, really…
Funny how no-one ever reports a cat on a roof…
©Stephen Tanham 2021
Stephen Tanham is a Director of the Silent Eye, a journey through the forest of personality to the dawn of Being.
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Intention chooses Heaven (2)

In Part One, we looked at the personal development of equanimity as an important step in attaining an inner state that allows room for new, and deeper, aspects of consciousness.
Equanimity takes us into a ‘new space’ within ourselves. We are aware of the world and its ups and downs, but we don’t react to in the way we used to. Instead, we have a heightened consciousness that is present yet detached from the stream of experience that’s coming at us. By not identifying ourselves with the content of that stream, we awaken something within, something that is calmer and far more out true nature.
This generates a need to understand the inner nature of the stream of events that we experience. We begin to question it in a different way. The idea of ‘accounting for our actions’ is well established in our Western minds in the West. The word ‘Karma’ began to filter into western consciousness in the early years of the last century, fuelled by a perception that the East possessed ancient truths which, combined with the West’s grasp of science, would enhance and enrichen our lives.
There were many interpretations of karma. Some saw it simply as cause and effect, with one’s actions producing a moral response from a ‘greater authority’, rewarding or retarding our perceived journey towards some distant perfection.
The Buddhists interpreted it differently. They perceived that if and understanding of karma was approached from a basis of personal equanimity, it offered the possibility of self-development ‘in the moment’. This was mirrored in the ‘Fourth Way’ philosophy of Gurdjieff, which spoke to the modern men and woman of the first half of the last century, needing to reconcile a society being changed, drastically, in each decade.
Gurdjieff spoke of a ‘third force’ that had the power to resolve seeming paradoxes. Not action and not reaction, this force could only come into being in special circumstances.
Because equanimity is a mental and emotional state detached from the flow of events, we can understand that our ‘now’ inherits the results of past actions but also gives us the potential to exist in a deeper state where karmic inheritance is secondary in power to a deeper consciousness.
I remember an admonition from an old Rosicrucian text read in my teens;
“When the consciousness arrives at this point, all judgement is suspended because we have become part of the unfolding of reality, not a reactive opposition to it…”
Does this detachment mean we don’t care what happens in the world? We do look at the world differently from this vantage. For a start, we realise that we live only in our world. This is not to say that experiences are not shared. They are; but each is different for the soul experiencing them. There is no exact commonality of experience, for it is composed of the product of what is happening plus how we react to it; and those seemingly small differences can result in an entirely different lived episode.
An early business mentor told me I needed to study really successful executives in dynamic corporate environments for I would find they spend the majority of their time listening… Only within a quiet synthesis of the present will they act.
In a belief system where karma operates rigidly, with the past actions determining the present, there is little room for free will. The Buddhists and Gurdjieff saw that actions truly in the now shape in ‘real time’ the present as well as the future. This restores action in the now to the causal level, and to the extent this happens, restores to us a degree of free will. For Buddhists, this is symbolised by flowing water. Too strong a flow and we can do little but secure our footing. But if the flow is gentle, then we may have much greater freedom. The skill would be in knowing the difference…
Both Buddhism, and the Gurdjieff method speak of a new type of action that is only possible at that quiet level of the self, where the egoic nature is silenced, and this new ‘quiet room’, seen previously only from the outside, is entered. Within this deeply peaceful space the greater Self can act in a way that makes it part of the unfolding wave of reality.
It’s easy to begin this journey into the self via the kind of guided meditation presented here:
When you are falling asleep tonight, visualise a fisherman’s net in your mind. See it clearly; feel its texture and colour. Imagine you are running your fingers over the small holes and testing their strength. Let your fingers travel to the point where the material of the net gives way to the stronger ropes that pull the loaded net from the water.
Tell yourself you will awaken with this image in your mind for use on the day that follows.
The morning after, hold in your mind the intention that when you feel yourself getting angry or impatient at any point during the day, you will cast this net around the perceived circumstances. Then imagine dragging the net out of the water and standing over it, look it at the ‘catch’. See the emotions normally generated by such circumstances struggling inside the net, resisting your work in ‘landing it’.
When this happens, see yourself smiling and let your hand slide back over the main ropes and ask yourself this question: “Who is holding this rope?”
©Stephen Tanham 2021
Stephen Tanham is a Director of the Silent Eye, a journey through the forest of personality to the dawn of Being.
http://www.thesilenteye.co.uk and http://www.suningemini.blog.
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Summer’s Retort
A circulating seed
That knows no death
Finds purchase in the soil
Of spring’s awakened green
And in the silky, shortest night
Explodes.
Born a child of solstice light
The summer’s lust for life
Embeds itself within
The coalescing heart of flower
To fall as seed returned
The forms of life are eaten
Baked and rolled
As harvest yields tomorrow
And bonfires mark the end of light
Casting free this single spark
Projected, angel bright
Into the heart of darkness
A half-turn yet to come
Where thunder fails to kill
the dark beast of Creation
Asleep in sodden Earth
And throughout this
Awakened, we may witness
Each movement, kiss and mate
With sandal, shoe and boot
A realised retort of Self
Sustained in singing summer’s flame.
©Stephen Tanham 2021
Stephen Tanham is a Director of the Silent Eye, a journey through the forest of personality to the dawn of Being.
www.thesilenteye.co.uk and www.suningemini.blog

I knew there was something odd about the strange bike in the glossy picture; something different – attractive yet on the edge of gloriously wrong…
Also, there was an eerie familiarity about the curves. Not just the fulsome orbs of the 1930 Henderson motorcycle, itself. Something even darker…
Binky said it had arrived as a postcard. With only the word ‘reunion’ written on the other side in dark red.
“I was just staring at it,” he said. “Adoring its lines; and this… mist appeared around the card, and began to pull at me! But I panicked…” He said it weakly, “… and phoned you.” He had coughed, then. “And now we’re here…”
“And now we’re here, eh Binky?” I said in my best sarcastic, gripping his elbow as painfully as I could while we gazed at the far side of that fast disappearing cloud that had taken us both.
The mist around the Henderson cleared slowly – concordant with the deep rumble of its engine. Jazz edged it out of the last wispy tendrils and into the space between us. We knew it was Jazz; no-one else had those crazy eyes, that curl of lips painted inky-black, the enormous assortment of silver hanging from the earlobes.
And a witch… even back then.
She brought the Henderson to a slickly-controlled halt, and placed two booted and spiked heels on whatever passed for ground, this side of sanity. At least I knew what had troubled me about the postcard.
“Coming for a ride, boys?” It wasn’t a question.
I was quicker than he was with a response. I could feel his elbow shudder as I delivered it. “Love to, Jazz. But I’m a married man these days… Binky’s free, though.”
Picture of 1930 Henderson motorcycle from here.
©Stephen Tanham 2021
Stephen Tanham is a Director of the Silent Eye, a journey through the forest of personality to the dawn of Being.
http://www.thesilenteye.co.uk and http://www.suningemini.blog

The words stopped my reading… I mean I read them and had to go back to them, immediately – not even finishing the sentence before returning.
Intention has long fascinated. It’s one of those vitally important words that belong with a handful of others, like memory, or will, or detachment, or even truth. Each of them carries great import when, and only when, it’s placed in its correct hierarchy of spiritual importance to mankind. It’s hard to imagine how important these words are. Familiarity has dulled their powers, but that can be fixed by conscious exposure to their reality.
The rusty object can be dug from the earth and, with time and dedication, lovingly restored to the mantelpiece.
“Intention chooses heaven”
I was reading a Buddhist text quoted in a favourite author, Tiramit, in which the placing and importance of ‘intention’ was clearly spelled out.
In the book of Genesis, we are admonished: ‘But you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil’. This instruction, far from being some general command, is a specific psychological reference that a certain pattern of thinking will take us away from ‘heaven’.
Good and evil is to like or dislike. By liking or disliking we engage with the elements of life which draw or repel us. Instead of ‘seeing the heavens reflected in a calm sea’ we create the waves that prevent us from seeing the starry sky.
So how do we get back to bathing in the eternal calmness of starlight? One of the keys is to understand the proper place of intention; and to do that, we must examine our own lives in detail to find out what stops us using the full power of this human faculty.
Intention is not simply will. Will is a kind of sustained emotion. It keep our effort focussed on a goal, a direction. Intention is to find that focus in the first place; moreover, to find a space within us where we can see the possibilities with the greatest inner clarity and calmness.
The article referred to when the Buddha, sitting under the Boddhi tree, was assailed by the demons of Mara. He repelled them by calling the Earth to witness the large number of perfections he had accumulated over ‘past lives’. Tiramit’s post invites us to interpret such ‘past lives’ in two ways: literally or figuratively. If the latter, then it invites us to review the highs and lows of our present lives in a way that is attentive yet dispassionate – seeing everything we have done, accurately and honestly, yet not allowing either negative or positive feelings (dislikes or likes) about each experience to arise. We make it simply part of the wave that was and is our lives. It is truth, if viewed in this way. It therefore simply becomes an ‘is’, or as the Buddha would have said, it is ‘thus’…
Such reviews of personal history are a time-honoured method of arriving at a state of equanimity. We need to acknowledge the power that like and dislike have held over us. We need to see that the world’s accolades of material gain are not those belonging to the inner consciousness. Very different qualities are valued by our inner Self.
“And get past being the victim or the star of the show…”
Within equanimity, we are alert to but not identified with, events. We see our past as important only in that it got us ‘here’; and here is immediately relinquished to the movement of the now, ever fresh and ever full of potential – but if equanimity prevails, that potential has been subtly altered. It’s like an equilateral triangle: balance the like and dislike of the two base points and something wonderful happens at the third…
Our true, inner power in the now is to be present to it, which, in turn bring its sense of presence to us. The world becomes intelligent as teacher. This marriage of attention and power invites a new state of intent, as we clearly see the right way forward and move consciously along a front that unites our inner and outer worlds.
A full understanding of this requires that we investigate what is actually meant by ‘Karma’, rather than the petty ‘action and judgement’ modes of its comprehension.
We will discuss the ‘law of Karma’ and its deeper implications, in next week’s Silent Eye post.
The Dhamma Footsteps article is here.
©Stephen Tanham 2021
Stephen Tanham is a Director of the Silent Eye, a journey through the forest of personality to the dawn of Being.
http://www.thesilenteye.co.uk and http://www.suningemini.blog

It is dark, so there won’t be any Photographs They will, like the sun Be resting in untaken Manifestation But collie’s last trip Outdoors In upward glance reveals A silver-blue unlike Any before It is the moon, hiding and smiling At The one human on the planet Standing here within the game Of Midnight
©Stephen Tanham 2021
Stephen Tanham is a Director of the Silent Eye, a journey through the forest of personality to the dawn of Being.
http://www.thesilenteye.co.uk and http://www.suningemini.blog

And on summer evenings, rich with sun absorbed, We will slip through the CV gate, the two of us, and with a ripple of space-time, find ourselves in Burgundy, where, in a small cafe, hidden from the unworthy, Nicole pretends to be married to a burly chef, though she, too, is chef, and also front of house.
And after water iced with lemon as the sun sets, she will once more set out to teach me the Subjunctive over white fish, pan fried with little dressing, and served with a bottle… two, possibly, as it is complex tense.
©Stephen Tanham 2021
Stephen Tanham is a Director of the Silent Eye, a journey through the forest of personality to the dawn of Being.
http://www.thesilenteye.co.uk and http://www.suningemini.blog

The heat, it must have been the heat That teased and turned my steps That stepped a different thrust and beat A moan of limbs on fire where once were feet. The green, it must have been the green That cooled me in a light I’d never drunk That drank me in a way that drew a sigh Surrendering to what - before, I had not seen. Into the trees; I went within the singing My garments eased from flesh that needed air An airing of the need within my skin and hair With ending like a bell that needed ringing. That sound - a cry that led you to the wood To find me, naked, drinking at the stream The hand, that once had stroked now drew on flesh The nails inscribing paths of where I’d been.
©Stephen Tanham 2021
Stephen Tanham is a Director of the Silent Eye, a journey through the forest of personality to the dawn of Being.
http://www.thesilenteye.co.uk and http://www.suningemini.blog

The heat, it must have been the heat
That teased and turned my steps
That stepped a different thrust and beat
A moan of limbs on fire where once were feet.
The green, it must have been the green
That cooled me in a light I’d never drunk
That drank me in a way that drew a sigh
Surrendering to what, before, I had not seen.
Into the trees; I went within the singing
My garments eased from flesh that needed air
An airing of the need within my skin and hair
With ending like a bell that needed ringing.
That sound - a cry that led you to the wood
To find me, naked, drinking at the stream
The hand, that once had stroked now drew on flesh
The nails inscribing paths of where I’d been.
©Stephen Tanham 2021
Stephen Tanham is a Director of the Silent Eye, a journey through the forest of personality to the dawn of Being.
http://www.thesilenteye.co.uk and http://www.suningemini.blog
We’re spending a few days in the Wiltshire village of Wootton Rivers. Set in the middle of the ancient Vale of Pewsey, its fertile farmland has a documented history going back to the Bronze Age. But we’re not here for the history…

It’s a long way from Cumbria. The clue to why we’re here is the village’s proximity to Avebury, home of Britain’s largest stone circle, and one of the previous destinations of the Silent Eye’s summer workshops.

Two years ago, Sue and Stuart had proposed another weekend here for 2020, but Covid put paid to that. We had booked our weekend’s accommodation well ahead – a converted chapel in the village of Wootton Rivers.


The owners offered us a full refund or the option of putting the booking back for a year. We opted to postpone; a decision we are delighted with now the long winter has matured into this blazing June.



Despite our long journey from Kendal, the first thing we wanted to do was take a walk to stretch our legs, get our bearings and make sure we still had a functioning collie! Turning onto the canal path, we met the lady owner of a turquoise narrow boat (above). She had sold her home to buy it, and now lives a quiet life ‘off-grid’. She had no regrets…

The untimely death of Sue Vincent, our fellow Director of the Silent Eye, has left us all a bit numb. Bernie and I had no agenda for this trip, simply to ‘be’ in a green and gold summer landscape for a few days, hopefully at the end of the Covid restrictions, though the present trends for the so-called ‘variant delta’ places that in doubt.

The sun and the sheer exuberance of Wiltshire at this time of year have lifted our spirits… and Wootton Rivers has provided its own humour; chief of which is the ‘Wootton Crouch’

The upstairs of a converted small Methodist Chapel is bound to be a little cramped. When a chapel, there would have been only the ground floor. So the architect had to create an upper floor – two bedrooms and a bathroom – from s steeply sloping ‘v’ shape. .

In a conversion, with low bathroom height, you’re going to bump into wooden features, overhead. Once you’ve bashed your head on a new wooden frame a few times you get the hang of walking round with a C-shaped spine – the said Wootton Crouch.

The problem is the heat – which isn’t really an issue, given we spend all winter pining for it. In this warm weather, the small upstairs of the beautifully-modernised chapel gets hot, and it’s necessary to leave the three Velux windows open, horizontally, if we are to return to a temperate building. However, if you forget, you can end up the ball in a child’s bagatelle as you jerk your bewildered head from the window frame into the opening glass shower door…
Humour aside, the Old Chapel has been a great place for a break. It’s stylish, comfortable… and only occasionally challenging.
It will all be good practice for our future canal boat, should it all get too much…


©Stephen Tanham 2021
Stephen Tanham is a Director of the Silent Eye, a journey through the forest of personality to the dawn of Being.
http://www.thesilenteye.co.uk and http://www.suningemini.blog





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